The readers that take time out to read the blog will know that in a few posts i have tried to explain my past. Now while i am not no shit hot writer or famous actor or even an educated professor, i try not to mince my words while always trying to polite and respectful. I didn't learn much when young but i learnt respect and have always tried to hold myself to the highest standards possible. I will return to this in a moment.
Anyway, tonight it seems i have been stabbed in the back by people i classed as "friends" (amazing what a slip of tongue does), this wont be the first nor last time it happens. I trusted and respected these people and was always willing to take one for the team.
But it seems that behind my back a different truth was being spoken.When you class someone as a friend that means you will give your life for them, it means you respect, trust and be honest with them.
So back to the headline, yes, i am thick, i don`t have qualification in anything (part from driving license) , i don't have the good learning experience. I once blogged about about my glass ceiling and how i don't think i can smash it, its not for wanting to, its because i am to far behind, i struggle sometimes (most the time) to have proper conversations with people on net/twitter/blogs because i cant put in to words what i want to say and do it in a way that expresses the right emotion.
I try my best to impress you all, and yes i probably try to hard and end becoming a right pain in the arse, but its because i trust people enough to feel confident to ask them. I said before that you may see my questions as silly and easy or no-brainers but for me they are not, they might be badly worded but i always try to ask questions that give me the answer i seek.
I sit and watch some days and so wish that i had the opportunities that you had and some have in front of you, bloody hell i would just like a GCSE ffs. Yes i get frustrated, i spend some nights asking myself "what if.."
From where i came from to where i am now is better and progress, but i want more , i want to improve.
I was trying to earn your respect.
So yes, thickos hurt to!
But don`t worry, it`s only Billy.